Something new.....

Reading Blogs is something I enjoy doing, writing blogs is something im new at. So hang with me as I vent about various things. Recently Ive been thinking alot about various people that come in and out of my life. I consider myself a very people oriented person. I love chatting and hanging out. I think im very loyal to my friends. So loyal that i often get burned in the process. It happened with my son's mom. Its happened with other people that have roamed in and out of my life and im sure it will happen again. Recently I reconnected with a friend that, when I put myself out there, decided to choose the other guy...BURN. Any normal guy would just let her go and move on. No more talking to her. No more contact, just done. You made your choice. However, I did the exact opposite. I let her walk away from me, and when her guy burned her in a bad way i was there to help her move on. Why you say? Cause im loyal. And its loyalty to a fault. So it got me thinking, why is it i cant let go? Why is it i hold on to the past? My present is amazing, my future is shaping up to be amazing, but for some reason i just cant let go of the past. Which then made me realize that there are a ton of things that im holding onto that i need to let go. Shelley, my childhood, my anger over my family, friends that arent friends, and the list goes on. All of those things mean nothing to the here and now, but i cant let go. I often wonder if having some kind of outlet would help with that however i find that it just covers the problem and doesnt resolve it. So anyway hopefully by writing these crazy thoughts down maybe itll loosen my grip on the past and help me move on. Until next time.....